the man and i did not plan for alexis. she just came along because we were not taking any birth control measures. hence we did not think i would NOT conceive naturally as we had an easy time the first time, until i was diagnosed with polycystic ovary syndrome in march 2015. maybe this is the price i pay for letting myself go jelliod. it was then followed by months of seeing fertility doctors, western and eastern. the man and i embarked on a journey that was beyond our imagination. injections, acupuncture, medicines became my daily routine for the longest time. the effects of bloatedness and weight gain piled on me. call me whatever you like, but i am driven into desperation. we were literally forced into taking this step, with a huge bated breath. they say, three strikes and you're out but lucky for us, one strike and we are now in the game. for the longest time, i was as lost as a baby lamb, i was terrified that i will never amount to anything.
fast forward to october 2015. now that we have wrestled the fertility woes into submission, it is the start of our second love's life ♥♥ anyway, i have been thinking and i know that i want to make the best out of the next five months of my life. not that i am in a bad situation or anything, just that my situation is probably less than ideal in the eyes of many. the severe morning sickness attack, the non-stopping bleeding, the cyst in my womb, the month long hospitalisation leave and the traumatic OSCAR scan result. despite all these, i am excited actually. i am excited to be carrying another love. i am excited to meet this little love of ours. i really am.
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