licking feet

new habits forming...such as this

she really has grown up, a great deal

when junior was about two months ago, darling dear and i attempted to pour water from her head down during bathtime, she hates it and showed her anger. she must have dread bathing, i said to the man. but we are bad, we continued everyday, she cried everytime.

these days, she no longer cries. she stood in the bath tub happily with her arms waving at her cot mobile ducklings, stamping her feet and splashing the water onto the floor. the man was so heart broken about his wooden flooring. we still continue our attempts but as much as she dislikes it, she no longer cries.

now, we introduce her to the bathroom. we use the shower head and spray it down her head. the spraying water touches her little hands and it triggers her curiousity. she wonders where does the water comes from and this time round, she tries to catch the spraying water. the fast running water went down her face too, she is fine. she loves it :))

independence

i really admire the people i see around me who know what they want and go all out to get it. i want to be like that too, to have a purpose, to be pursuing something important. they are not afraid to get shot down repeatedly and rise to the occasion at any given time. people with passion are people who are living.

i want to teach junior to not be afraid of anything, to stand upon the many things that she believe in.

i want to let her know that i will be her guiding light. a beacon amongst the darkness. i want to be her her lighthouse.

i want her to be calm and collected. to have every situation under her control. to be seek by people for guidance.

all i want is for her to grow up, not as physically as i'm grown up now. but independence.



on a side note, a candid video taken today. it is funny and i wonder what she is thinking at that moment :)

time for a break

last week has been slightly weird, like i'm forever exhausted and feeling a bit too unmotivated for many things especially work. except for my dearest hubby and girl, seems like nothing excites me, nothing to look forward to and absolutely nothing to be happy about. just constantly knackered, i think it'll be okay to want a hug? i love hugs.

after a day leave today, work continues tomorrow and i really dread it. perhaps its because i started to question my role at work. i love to fight for people and i hate to be the management's spokeperson. i am sure it appears to be i am not exactly a nice person. i am sarcastic sometimes, too straight forward, unglamorous and pretty insensitive to a certain degree. i am a cynic to many things. when something good happens, i tend to question it alot and pick a flaw to attack. but after all, i am only a salary-paid employee right?