i lost my final grip

today is a moment in life when i just want to disconnect, from people, from everything.
i want to be standing outside of my life, looking in.

sit back and enjoy

beerless,
so darling dear and i quickly rushed out to kroger to get some samuel adams before the roads get iced up :P

luckily we went,
else i will not be able to grab pepperidge farm at $1.
(((:

29 december 2009

its snowing again (:

short of money this month =(

should i "buy, don't think"
or
"think, don't buy"

hmm...okie, think i shall go with darling dear's taste.

happily merrily christmas pressie!

got myself a pair of prada shades (((:

五香

yesterday was like the old days.
exploring cooking at home with darling dear.
though we had to slog in the kitchen from cutting the ingredients to washing the pots and pans, i kinda like these kind of simple days.

finally, one more task ticked in my must-do-food list,
LOL!

you're my best x'mas present in my life

"words can never fully say what we want them to say, for they fumble, stammer, and break the best porcelain.

the best one can hope for is to find along the way someone to share the path, content to walk in silence, for the heart communes best when it does not try to speak."

for the someone who values me the most, loves me the most,
and said the sentence in gallaria on saturday, "i cannot lose you",
thank you,
your words blew me away,
i'm glad i found you.

i treasure you,
just as i have treasured our life together.
=)

i wish everyday is x'mas

with the un-melted snow on the ground, this year's x'mas lightings seem even more significant!

what a white christmas...


deerfield organised a yearly house christmas lighting competition.
this house got the first! very nice effort =)

you are my santa

"Falling in love and staying in love is like Christmas everyday.
The excitement of presents, the love that's shared as well as all of the drama that it holds"
— Gabrielle Myers

x'mas dinner

so, on x'mas eve, darling and i were like a pair of bumble bees rushing to supermarkets and cooking for dinner.
we had turkey breast, bratwurst, lamb chop, pizza, salad, roasted potatos, not forgetting irene's pasta, and of cos wines and champagne.
it was our first time inviting people to our house for a meal actually, LOL!

although it was only a small crowd consisting of bingbing, edward, garry and irene,
all were great, at least i enjoyed myself, my stomach was filled, the company was good, everything went great (:

lunch on x'mas eve

it was a cold cold snowy x'mas eve today.
the temperature dropped below zero degree celcius,
but irene's prawn noodle was a comfort food (:

finally it snows....on x'mas eve

hohoho!
merry merry christmas! :D

kudos to irene who called me at the first sight of snow,
else,
i'm still building a snowman only in my dreamland.

say hello to long weekend!

christmas long weekend is here,
and i'm soooo happy!
=)

lucky angel

happy to say, liyi-irene-angel's cookies look so yummy that darling couldn't resist and munched off a couples.
it didn't take me any second to realise that i'm so lucky, i always have him for my bakes (:

cookies at irene's

this is the funniest cookie making session i had ever experiment.
i'm so surprised by our stamina ((:

.we were working in the kitchen from 5.30pm till 10.15pm,
mass producing cookies, LOL!
BUT,
liyi and i only left irene's house at 2am!!!

the process was busy busy busy, but luckily we had the help of my cookie cutter, liyi's hershey cocoa powder and irene's oven.

this is a big big project for the 3 of us in the house, and we were definitely very engrossed with the chores in the kitchen.
everyone has their own task,
but not-so-secretly, we took loads of candid and not-so candid pictures on my camera.

the cookies came out great!
okie, conclusion...liyi got the most meticulous award! her cookies came out looking so nice and pretty! (:

and most importantly, our hubbies gave the thumb up with big blissful smiles

a food i will miss

darling brought home this mexican pastry last night,
hooray!
i absolutely love him for this!

campechanas

the 3 hubby-is-working girls

yesterday was a record breaker for my 1 year in america. i stayed out with irene in liyi's house till about 1am! LOL!

we ate lay's & kueh, drink thai tea and chit chat about everything in our lives! unknowingly, the 3 of us finished the whole big pack of chips - too greedy. 30 more mins of jog clocked for me now ):
and poor irene, her tooth broke into half. OUCH!

whats next?
cookie making at irene's house.
look forward to seeing you girls later again (:

our first dongzhi celebration

The Dōngzhì Festival or Winter Solstice Festival (Chinese: 冬至; Pinyin: dōng zhì; "The Extreme of Winter") is one of the most important festivals celebrated by the Chinese and other East Asians during the Dongzhi solar term (winter solstice) on or around December 22 when sunshine is weakest and daylight shortest.

a stomach-warming present

thank you for the yummy yam kueh!!
make our stomachs so bloated but filled with happiness!
:D

my happy stomach

yesterday was one of those days that we cooked at home, eat chut bee png with mummy-goh's dynamic chilli for dinner and watch UP.
though darling chef's sticky rice isn't as great as papa-goh's, but at least it has one big fan ((:

OMG!

someone said to me, "you lost alot of weight! not nice!"

but i wonder where does ALOT come from?

my southlake trip

sadly to know, another week is over.
i'm approaching the end of 2009, and my feeling towards it is "SUPER UPSET!"
but i love weekends - they bring me back to life!

it was a random decision to head off to southlake after brunch. without knowing the reason, i fell in love with this place during my first visit early this year and i knew i'll be back again.

with christmas round the corner, everywhere is having sale and everyone is doing their christmas shopping. of cos, this is a good news to irene and me! however, we only left this place with aeropostale and a 7" cheesecake from cheesecake factory. no impulse shopping today as we might be heading off to san marcos during the new year holidays!
and, i like it!
hooray!!! ((:

sawadicap!

so, on the other thursday,
liyi, irene and me drove off to toom's house to learn the art of tom yum!
we went fully equipped with all the necessary ingredients.

we 3 lucky ladies were greeted by a delicious pot of thai dessert upon our arrival (:
and followed by a long long chit chat, almost forgetting our purpose of this trip, LOL! (credits to irene for her reminder)

this is a big project for all of us in the house! the process was busy, funny and super funny! but we managed to master the recipe for this famous thai delicacy within the time frame (:

and somehow, we were so engrossed in drinking the tom yum soup until nobody remembers to take a photo of it, ha!

yummy yummy

today is one of those days that i enjoy eating pipping hot deep fried stuff. especially when they were fried with love, by the love of my life ♥♥♥

NO MOOD!

simply no mood ):

gym, more to come

i was wondering what to do with my body lard until irene suggested to go for gym-ing today.

GYM, a word which used to be in my daily dictionary seems to have vanished recently.
anyway, i jogged for 30mins, as usual. feels good but not that great. accumulated fats need more than 1 jogging session, sadly to say ):
anyway, more to come definitely.
5 more months and i be back in singapore. as quoted from irene, she doesn't want her mum to double the size of her door to welcome her daughter home. neither do i!

anyway today's session also serve as a gentle reminder on my current fitness level.

donald and daisy

our buys in disney store, grapevine
donald duck has been darling's favourite since his younger days,
and now he is still loving it.
as much as how daisy loves donald,
angel loves ayc. (:

"I will love you as the iceberg loves the ship, and the passengers love the lifeboat and the lifeboat loves the teeth of the sperm whale, and the sperm whale loves the flavor of naval uniforms."
— Lemony Snicket (The Beatrice Letters)

my sinful diet

being a frequent visitor of grapevine, we always walked past this store "CINNAMNONSTER". but since darling always has nothing good to say about cinnamon, we never patranise them. sadly, my curiosity for this store faded as time passed by...

yesterday was another day out to grapevine with garry & irene. when we walked past cinnamonster, irene was attracted to this soft white swirl bread hinted with cinnamon topped with a thick swirl of creamy topping and a oozing caramel middle! i was jumping in joy, in my heart, LOL!

thankfully darling was game enough to eat it too - considering a anti-cinnamon person he is. appearantly the four of us had full thumb up for this swirl bread!!

we will be back for more, i'm very sure (((:

where is it???!!

a note to my darling: i want my chut bee png aka glutinous rice aka 糯米饭! roarrr!!

an idyllic life

i'm feeling so tired recently.

i'm still not adapting well to his shift ic work, sadly.
i'm stoning more often, waiting but caught falling asleep at wee hours, gaining weight (what the ____!) but i'm trying to lose at the same time!

how i wish,
we could escape to somewhere simple and carefree. lying upon in a strawberry farm, enjoying the fragrance of the fields and the cedar trees, and to live simply in this place forever.

what will be, will be

in another 6 months,
my life will be taking a complete turn and i ought to be accepting that.
"i will see how it goes, everything should be fine." i churned out to myself calmly even though i know that this is a lie, because i seriously do not know how it will go. in some way, i'm very scared but yet trying to convince myself too.

it's like my entire existence has been completely wiped clean 1 year ago.
i'm starting on a completely new identity very soon - frightening.

i think angel is having a real mental crisis...

moist butter cake

my evening bake

有你真好，我爱你

亲爱的老公，加油！
你要快快回来。

你老婆，我在家里等你！♥♥♥

i hoping for something better

something lingering in my head today.
what if this is not what i'm looking forward to?

carls jr / hardee's

this isn't an healthy entry.
readers on a south beach diet, high cholesterol should stay away.

my impression of a fast food outlet is usally very macdonald-ish.
but darling helped to change my opinion somehow. but more credits should go to america.
a place with lots of fast food restaurants.
and i'm always spoilt for choice!
not only macdonalds or kfc, but there is so many more:
jack in the box
wendys
arbys
chick-fil-a
etc

our favourite for grilled chicken burger has gonna be carls jr aka hardee's (sister company of carls jr).
their charboiled chicken club and the curly fries, gigantic onion rings...
full of calories but trust me... it's all worth it!
much better than the ones we eat back home.

we have been going after our favourite fast food cravings everytime we are out of texas.
i'm trying my best to watch our calories...just trying, but sometimes the mouth simple can't resist.
that is why, i limit myself to 5 bites a burger and i gonna give the rest to the guy who has been trying to gain weight.
he is now trained to gobble down 1 and 3 quarters of burgers (:

angel is surrounded by good cooks!

an ultra late entry.

authentic 麻婆豆腐 with compliments from yang ping (:

its cold, i'm loving it (:

a pretty sunday out to galleria with his colleagues (waipan, yangping, garry and irene), and off we went for a cvs couponing trip with garry and irene after 60 pieces of wings at wingstop!

the shopping, couponing and dinner were good, except that i had issue of puking.
i felt absolutely awful after that ):

welcome back

i think i still prefer to sleep on my own bed than a foreign bed.

a tod's to my collection!

yippe!!
finally got myself a TOD'S bag! at a price of $350 ((:
it was orginally at a retail price of $1450!

it was not what i actually wanted,
but well, that was way out of my budget,
i am only a housewife here ):

then the sales person suddenly took out photos of celebrities carrying tod's bag,
there is jessica alba, cameron diaz, elizabeth hurley etc,
and its really so irresistible!

anyway i also love this one,
and i kept reminding myself, "just buy, don't think!"

so whats next?
louis vuitton? LOL!!

beach number 7

palm beach, a last minute destination really rocks my socks off!

too bad, i'm in my jeans and a newly bought pair of boots (only @ $16.99!), else i might just jump into the water again! LOL!

i don't remember when i started to like beaches, how i started hanging out in beaches, the first time that i ever went to east coast beach.
what i remember was how darling booked bintan banyan tree as our first overseas trip and i really love him for that! :D

one day at a time

"one day at a time--this is enough.
Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone;
and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.
live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."
— Ida Scott Taylorlately, my life seems to pass amazingly beautifully fast that i do not know if my memory has the capacity and volume to remember these beautiful happenings.

i'm greedy and i want more such of life.

i'm good and i hope everyone is good too (((:

when you're in miami, try panya thai restaurant

feeling listless on the last day,
without any plans after a skinny dip, we hopped onto the car in search for panya thai restaurant.

fortunately. with the raved reviews on forum and with darling's gps intelligence, we located it very quickly (:
the restaurant was quite empty when we arrived, perhaps its on a weekday.
the customers were mostly americans surprisingly.

the menu is pretty long but with a lunch special, it was easy to pick out our choices.
our pick was iced thai tea, coconut juice, very hot tom yam goong, pad thai and medium hot duck curry.
the tom yum goong came first and it was indeed hot, super super hot but super super nice!
surprisingly, darling gulped down everything despite the perspiration and swollen lips.
i lovvve spicy food and this would definitely appeal to me.

the pad thai and duck curry were good. they were so awesome since its been such a long time we had such authentic thai food that i was savouring it slowly,
while my partner goppled his super delicious curry up so quickly with 2 bowls of rice, not surprising.
he had both thumbs up for them. so did me!
the pad thai was so delicious and fragrant and it makes you crave for more. there's nothing to complain about, really.
great food, great service, great ambiance.

Panya Thai Restaurant
520 NE 167th St.
North Miami Beach, FL 33162
(305)945-8566

naked experience in nude beach, LOL

today,
went over to haulover beach park aka nude beach for an extrordinary experience!!!

the name of this beach says it all, everyone is nude!
from top to bottom, regardless of sizes, ages and genders.
the very mention of this place arouses feelings of embarrassment, i am sure, especially we are non-americans.
but do not forget, after all, we all come into this world wearing only our birthday suits.

as taking snapshots of other nudists, especially without permission, is taboo,
i decided to leave my sony alone and enjoyyyy....

we made a bold decision,
to join in the crowd,
and, i like it (: hooray!!
photos taken but shall keep them for own viewing :)

miami beach but not on the roads

this morning, i was un-thrilled to see the weather forecast.
but, my un-thrill didnt last long, the sun came and i was in the top ten beaches in america - miami south beach.

a beautiful place with lots of hunks, bikini/topless babes, a bed of white warm sand and endless horizon accompanied with sea breeze.

we got quite hyper despite this being our 3rd day of beach-ing ,
we rolled and laughed at each other, tried to surf on the waves.

who cares about the stares,
what matters most is the awesome time spent :D

p/s i wonder if we are driving in singapore or america here.

journey to the lovers key

today was a day at lovers key.

in the early 1900s the islands were only accessible by boat.
it was said that only lovers made the effort to get to this romantic island - thus the name LOVERS KEY.

other than being tired, salty and slightly burnt,
we collected sand all over our bodies and lots of sea shells, again.
all in all, we are happy and enjoyed the quality time spent together - that's enough :D

i like BEACH days

it was another fun-fun-fun suntan day for the couple after being to 3 beaches,
while angel is white (skin-ly!) - all thanks to the indoor, air conditioned working environment in shenton way.

we whipped up a lot of laughter ourselves,
sea shells picking, playing with the water, random flashes of our sony dsc-w120.
we had the best of the best :D

happiest couple in the happiest place on earth!

in a blink of the eye, i'm done with my visits in the happiest place on earth - walt disney world.
i'm quite surprised that i'm actually still surviving and i want an encore! haha!
finally, or not so finally, i think i quite miss this place quite a bit, and the characters more!

we are heading to manasota beach, blind pass beach & englewood beach tomorrow. a place to rest and relax. a place for some quiet romantic time. a place from city life.

4th day in florida

if there was 2 thing to say about my past 4 days in florida, it would be not-so-sweet and yearning-for-more.
no no, dont get me wrong, i enjoyed myself inside out mickey-mousing and shopping...
but my cold virus followed me from dallas to here,
and that brought my darling truckloads of cold sweat.

i fell in love with a TOD'S bag.
it is priced @ $507 after sale and discount.
well, it was not considered expensive actually, considering the brand.
still being the independent city girl at heart,
no way am i going to let him pay for me! ((:
so i toss a coin
i love you but perhaps, we are just not meant to be together ))):

angel is florida-ing

so, do not panic if you can't reach me.

deep breath: florida is near

yesterday,
i felt as though i was sleepwalking.
darling was on mc but it turned out that i'm the one who kept popping on his pills.

today,
i'm currently nursing my own health and trying to introduce my life to a new wife, irene.
reluctantly i packed my luggage and ironed all the clothes,
after reminders from him that i need to eat and rest.

somehow i have an unexpected fear of falling ill in me - i reckon its because of my florida trip on thursday.
but on the other hand, i felt good and light.
i haven been eating for the past 2 days, only except medicine i suppose.
and especially with all the pukings.
darling even tried to tempt me several times with chocolate but nahhh....which i assume he felt shocked (:

a patient nursing a patient

living is hard,
living with a bad throat is harder.

the germs had officially migrated ):

a nurse-y wife

this is a hectic weekend, at least for me.
darling came home sick and i was a busy nurse nursing his health.
i was his cook and his medicine timer. i had been feeding him with ginger tea and green bean soup. i woke up almost every hour to check his status and to give him a get-well kiss.

though you are speading your germs to me, but i will still love you like there is no tomorrow ♥

10 days of darling-less

first thing after darling stepped into the house on friday, he hugged me and said,
"dear, i miss you verrrrry much!!"

awwww, this is best than everything i received from you.

"A kiss is just a kiss until it happens to you.
A hug is just a hug until you do it with the one your thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until it comes true.
Love is just a word until it's proven to you."
— Tanya Maya

hiatus ends last friday!!!

i'm the chef for the lunch yesterday,
trust me! i can, definitely, whipped a good hearty pineapple rice meal.
at least for my sick chef!

dumbo is sick

each time your face turned pale from your cold, my heart sank.

yippieeeee....

being the last day of my home-alone days, daphne and i know we had to get outta the house! to buy groceries of cos. my fridge had became a carnivore due to the cheap pork sale in kroger 2 weeks ago. now i need to put some vegetables and fruits inside to balance it up.

it was a good grocery shopping spree though our wallets bled a slight bit but we found ourselves happy!

a note to daphne: next time braums on me! (:

nobody knows.

nobody knows....
how exhausted i am right now after 5 hours of housework.

weird thoughts came to me after that.

it is a good reminder that i must not buy anymore things.

my love dream

tomorrow you will be home but i still miss everything about you now.

i miss how you will ask me to say goodnight before we both went to sleep.
i miss how you will wake me up accidentally in the night, just because you are making a melody with your loud snores.
i miss how you said you'll smack my butt, just because you feel that its tight.
i miss how you will imitate the dumb forever family for their words and laughter.
i miss how you will go "muack" over the phone because i said i want you to do so.
i miss how you will crack your brains because i said i want a surprise.
i miss how you will want to lay on my laps to zzz after complaining that you are tired but knowing that i'm still wide awake.
i miss how you will insist that i must give u a goodbye hug and kiss before you leave for work.
i miss how you will say how much you love me everyday.
i miss how you come home, telling me about your disastrous day at work.
i miss how you will pull me back, complaining that i'm walking too fast.
i miss how you will cook for me every weekend and whenever you are home.
i miss how you will pampered with my breakfast and supper.

all in all, everything seems like a dream, suddenly.
a very sweet dream in the reality (:

"life is a deep sleep of which love is the dream"
— Alfred De Musset

the world of angel

"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."
— Marilyn Monroe

the key word is: 2

$1 wednesday

our wonderful coupon excursion. liyi and i were well-equipped with water bottles, jackets, boots, and coupons! so aunty. (:

"anybody up for more coupon trips, pls?!"

a few more days!

darling dear: "da-da, i can see u in a few more days already!"
(:

zoommmm!!

i had a wonderful once-in-a-decade session at toom's house today.
liyi and i left with a happy stomach loaded with tom yum soup and thai vermicelli salad. and yes! we even ta-bao them home as if they were all free...oops!

we both agree that we need to visit again, and make toom our shifu!

a day like that makes the tick-tock go fast (:

not so bad after all

"when I look at you all the memories come rushing in.
then I realize I am the luckiest person in the world."today is one of those days that a caffaine shot can't fix. a day which can be so wearying but it seems not to take up much of my time. its just feels so infinitely bad without you.

as bad as it may seems, i got ready my menu for friday, i got ready my coupons for this coming week's cvs deal, i also got ready mentally for my holiday retreat next thursday.

how i wish i can lay beside the Gulf now, watch the sun dance on the waves and walk barefoot across the sugar white beaches with the love of my life. we will build our fairytale sand castle by the Gulf of Mexico and live out our romantic dreams (:

what if one day

what if one day you woke up and you realised everything was a dream?
what if one day you woke up and right becomes wrong?
what if one day you woke up and realised you don't remember anything?
what if one day you woke up and you realised tomorrow never comes?
what if one day you woke up and roses weren't as beautiful as they should be?
what if one day you woke up and realised you weren't living?
what if one day you woke up and nothing had changed?

i'll snooze my alarm for another 5 minutes and see what happens then.
what if one day you woke up and realise today is 20 november 2009? (:

like that.

so, this early morning, i was like a bumble bee getting geared up for my cvs and walgreens trips.
all were awesome, i had a nice time driving on the roads, got the stuff i wanted, paid little for them (:

i was very tired these few days with the early get-ups.
however with no attempt of getting more rest, i had been popping painkiller these 3 days ):

ironically, i felt more than satisfied like that.
at least it makes my past 5 days fast and furious!

"I love you also means I love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that I love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else. "
— Jonathan Safran Foer