the happiness project

i am really just another girl-next-door, alive with fairytale dreams, drawing cheerfulness in sadness and sweetness in bitterness and believing that dazzling love can be better than diamonds, forever and always.

i am sitting here reminiscing, of the feelings i had before, that seems like alexis-baby just came into my life just yesterday when she is already a toddler. exactly a month left to another new year, time passes in a blink and you’ll wonder, what's next. what’s your best kept memories this year?

five precepts

this afternoon, a colleague reminded me of the five precepts which constitute the basic buddhist code of ethics - abstain from taking life unnecessarily; abstain from taking things not given; abstain from immoral actions; abstain from false speech; and abstain from intoxicating liquors and drugs.

sometimes even if we know doing certain things are wrong, we still do it anyway. ultimately, these wrongs messes you up and creates unneccessary chaos in your life. so as much as a buddhist's life is based on these five precepts, they should be the fundamental law of the universe and basic guidelines for every living human being, i feel.

tonight i am at peace and determined in some ways. i will love to stay hidden forever. i will not want to be discovered. i will want to keep myself at peace. i love this dream world of cheerful images, lovely words and fairytale stories i paint. it's my dream state of wonderland that keeps me alive and gay everyday. but i don't want people to know me. i take shelter in shades of grey. i take comfort in the man and the girl :)

path of smiles

this weekend was nice. we had a delicious tortilla dinner at home, slurped root beer ice-cream float and had a dreamy day playing with the girl. it is this unspoken love we have in each other and how we can so easily come together and laugh as a family. i am really glad that this daring girl is so happy, healthy, friendly, unpretentious, and very playful, she is even better than what i dared to expect, i don't think i could ask for more!

i wish for this everyday and everyday, being in her path of smiles.

i don't know what's good about life now other than the man and and spending all time with the girl because it is do as we please, go as we please. life is much fulfiling now that the girl is walking and running at full speed, talking and screaming at her high pitch. she is still learning and growing everyday, still trying to pierce things up. no tv, no gadgets and minimum toys are still our philosophy to the girl. without distractions, we hope the girl will be able to step out of her comfort zone being adventurous, curious and to ponder about her learnings and events in her life :)

sunday bakings

its vanilla cupcakes sunday today!
certainly love all these baking moments of my life :)

a stick of aged cheddar

just the girl and her lovely cheesy hands :)