an everyday surprise

thank you so much junior alexis!
you have officially made our day!
❤ you.

tell me about it

what a feeling

parenthood is such an amazing journey. we are now officially parents and could not be more in love. i cannot begin to describe how much we love our junior and would definitely go through all the pain and heartache again if i knew the ending was such a special little girl. i can still hardly believe that we were blessed with such a miracle and appreciate every single moment i have with her, even on only a few hours sleep. i have never been so happy and am looking forward to all the little adventures to come.

there's always you who love more

sometimes, i think i'm selfish because i do things my way, i do not spare a thought for people's feelings and i do whatever i feel like just because i hate restrictions. i cannot promise anyone consistency because i cannot keep up with consistency myself. someday, somethings will change because change is the only constant in life. the thing about me is, i do something because i feel like it and most of the time, i don't really have concrete reasons to back certain things i do.

on a side note, it's early November. the irony is, without work, i find myself being busier but much much much much happier.

in 2 days' time, papa-goh is 62.
in 4 days' time, we'll be celebrating our 3rd year wedding anniversary.
in 5 days' time, junior is 2 weeks old.
in 10 days' time, i'm turning 28.
in 26 days' time, i'm confinement-free and junior is 1 month old!
in 10 weeks' time, its back to work for me :((

加油!

3 more kilos to my pre-pregnancy weight :D

a name chosen

Ang Yu Yan Alexis, 洪语嫣

sense of guilt

after weeks of living with a breast pump without a life, i have decided to just let the milk supply die and enjoy the full glory of junior. no more uncomfortable pains, no more 24 hours spend in the room(!), best of all, junior is gaining weight.

4 weeks of jail time. i hate confinement and i have a confession to make: i bath everyday with my victoria's secret.

formulas

ang yew chye + angel goh = ang yu yan alexis
(A+) + (B+) = (AB+)

a lesson to learn

Switching to formula

Most mother who switch to formula in the early weeks do so with regret - 90 per cent of women who switch before six weeks would like to continue. This means they can feel guilty and defensive about switching.

If this applies to you, think about giving yourself a break. Feed your baby closely and responsively, just as you would with breastfeeding. Often, it's the intimacy that mothers miss when breastfeeding stops, for whatever reason. It needn't disappear. In fact, there's nothing to stop you holding your baby to your breast whenever you want to, even if you're no longer breastfeeding.

Guilt is the emotion we feel when we know we've done something deliberately wrong - this just doesn't apply to infant feeding, when parents work out what's likely to be best for them and their baby in their own particular circumstances.

If breastfeeding didn't work out well, understanding what happened can help, as can considering where you might get support if there's a next time with another baby.

all I know now is stressed mommy gives out stressed milk, and will produce a stressed baby.

i am constantly learning to be a mommy and i think i did the right thing.

my lifetime career

i want to be a happy mommy to my dearest alexis

full stop